Second chance at a first book

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“Fool, fool. Back to the beginning is the rule.”

Well, I’m finishing up the last of my edits. One last pass to insert a little more detail here and there and Butterfly 4.0 will be ready to be sent back to my editors. That’s not to say there won’t be another round of edits coming…apparently that’s not unheard of!

But that means, I’ve got no choice but to drag out Dragon Court. My first manuscript. It literally gathers dust in a box beneath my desk. I thought it cute that I continue to write with my first shelved project at my feet, like an ancient relic. I haven’t opened it yet, though I did brush the cobwebs off. I know what’s inside. It’s the first paper copy of that I ever submitted along with the rejection letter from the editor that earned me my PRO status.

It’s a nice letter as far as rejections go. It has a positive comment – good worldbuilding of 8th century China. And it has constructive feedback – Work a lot more on the romance. I’ve come to learn that in the world of rejections, this was a golden one.

I’m afraid of this manuscript like nothing else. I know it’s not good. Backstory, too many POVs, and the writing…I don’t want to look! It’s like the thing is haunted. I made up this curse around it and it’s my Achilles heel.

I know this is a big opportunity. I have a chance at selling my first book — heck, I have the chance to sell more than one book!  My Little Sis pointed out that this was the most complex of all three. Maybe it’s fitting that I write it again, now that I have more experience. To really learn how to write my first book — I need to write three. 🙂

So I’m going to call this my first and fourth book. What comes around, goes around. I think it needs a new working title now that “Dragon” has appeared in Book #3. I’m thinking of calling it “Across the Silk Road” or “A Dream of the Middle Kingdom”. Hee hee. Yes, they’re lofty non-romance titles, but those get changed anyway.

Maybe partway through, a better title will come to me. Or someone will just give me a title, like what happened with The Dragon and the Pearl.

Edited to add: By the way, that box in the picture really is my first manuscript. 🙂

#queryfail & #agentfail

Even if you don’t want to look the ensuing fallout/commentary is pasted everywhere. And then it’s like a trainwreck, you can’t look away.

So I will hop onto the train for just a moment. I just want to say, anger does such bad things to you inside. If the venting helps, then I suppose that is a good thing. But the negative vibes make me sad-faced so I have to stay away. Both from the original #fails and then all the side conversations.

To me, an agent rejection or no response means one thing: They’re just not that into you. 🙂

Okay, I lied. It means two things. The second one is, your writing isn’t good enough yet.

There is much more peace in that understanding than wondering about all this other static. Going to Zen out now and revise.