Sleeping on it

I’m slogging through the hardest part of revision right now; the mushy middle. If I can tighten it and build the tension, the reward is that the ending will write itself. If I can’t, the book falls apart and there’s nothing I can do.

I wanted to revise six chapters this weekend because I’m endlessly optimistic that this time, it’ll all flow and it’ll all come easy. No, not so much. I ended up with only three chapters. Every day, I spend the day reading and revising the chapter. It’s a lot more than just line edits. A lot of the times the revisions are raising the stakes and completely changing the scenes so they’re not so “stagnant”. That’s the story killer for me — stagnant. That comment from a CP means I must change these pages or it’s a dead duck.

For the last three days, I’ve gone to bed with one chapter revised, mulled over the end with my head on my pillow, and thought about what still needed to be fixed. Then, with no computer or e-mail in front of me and nothing left to do in the day but try to sleep, I could finally fantasize about my characters. And it’s worked! Last night was the biggest breakthrough yet — my hero’s character arc was stagnant.

The process is painfully slow, but I can see the light at the end of the tunnel.

Holy heartbreak, is that July coming at me?

Close up: Me frozen like a deer in the headlights.

Is it really the first of July tomorrow?

Cue: Hysterical scream.

I don’t freak out often, believe it or not. But July means that there’s only a couple of weeks left until RWA conference. I’ve been building up to this for so long. I’m going to room with friends I haven’t seen in a year. I’m totally excited to meet a bunch of online writerly acquaintances that I’ve made recently. I’m thinking over elevator pitches and picking outfits.

I expect to be on a natural high the entire week of July 15-18 in D.C. with all the networking parties, workshops and award ceremonies. Butterfly Swords is up for four awards including the Golden Heart®. The Dragon and the Pearl (aka Silk and Seduction) is up for an award as well. *eek* I need to prepare a speech for the GH® in case I get called up because I don’t want to look like a total goof up there. (I never could wing it in 3rd grade with the book reports. I know I’m not going to be able to wing it now so I’m preparing a speech.)

Underneath it all, I know the build up is going to lead to the adrenaline crash of the century once it’s all over. Already dreading that. 🙁 All the while, “real life” continues.

Camera pans wide:
Big, daunting “real life” monsters closing in. Let’s have them dressed as the Wild Things from “Where the Wild Things Are.”

Fade to black.